{"id":6790,"date":"2022-11-06T14:04:21","date_gmt":"2022-11-06T13:04:21","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/ppkhok.elte.hu\/?page_id=6790"},"modified":"2022-11-08T09:59:49","modified_gmt":"2022-11-08T08:59:49","slug":"f-z-allva-megy","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/ppkhok.elte.hu\/?page_id=6790","title":{"rendered":"F.Z.: \u00c1llva megy"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\"><figure class=\"alignright size-large is-resized\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/ppkhok.elte.hu\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/11\/received_831923324812747-860x1024.jpeg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-6834\" width=\"243\" height=\"289\" srcset=\"https:\/\/ppkhok.elte.hu\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/11\/received_831923324812747-860x1024.jpeg 860w, https:\/\/ppkhok.elte.hu\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/11\/received_831923324812747-252x300.jpeg 252w, https:\/\/ppkhok.elte.hu\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/11\/received_831923324812747-768x914.jpeg 768w, https:\/\/ppkhok.elte.hu\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/11\/received_831923324812747-1290x1536.jpeg 1290w, https:\/\/ppkhok.elte.hu\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/11\/received_831923324812747.jpeg 1720w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 243px) 100vw, 243px\" \/><\/figure><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Az id\u0151 meg\u00e1llt.<br \/><\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Amit magamnak \u00e1stam g\u00f6dr\u00f6t;<br \/><\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Abb\u00f3l egyed\u00fcl kell kim\u00e1sznom &#8211;<br \/><\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Karom gyenge m\u00e1r.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">A k\u00f6t\u00e9l elszakadt.<br \/><\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Nem merem bevallani, hogy tegnap;<br \/><\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">M\u00e1r megint \u00e1lomba s\u00edrtam magamat.<br \/><\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Bajom semmi: csup\u00e1n <\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">meghasadtam.<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Egy helyben vagyok. Mindig ugyanott.<br \/><\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">T\u00fck\u00f6rbe n\u00e9zek: elfordulok,<br \/><\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Amit l\u00e1tok, nem tetszik &#8211;<br \/><\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">N\u00e9m\u00e1n mosolyt rajzolok, amit egy boh\u00f3c mutatott.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Rakosgattam a kirak\u00f3s darabjait, \u00e9veken \u00e1t &#8211;<br \/><\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">M\u00e1ra kialakult a k\u00e9p: tetszik?<br \/><\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Nemr\u00e9g \u00e9szrevettem, hogy \u00fajra r\u00e1gom a k\u00f6rm\u00f6met;<br \/><\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">De m\u00e1r a h\u00fasomba harapok. V\u00e9rzik. F\u00e1j.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Hogy a lyukb\u00f3l felh\u00fazzam magam, k\u00f6telem fonom:<br \/><\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Hogy tudn\u00e1m ha senki sincs mellettem?<br \/><\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Hi\u00e1nyzom. Nekem;<br \/><\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">A r\u00e9gi \u00e9nemet akarom.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Neh\u00e9z k\u00e9rd\u00e9sre v\u00e1laszolni, amit fel sem tesznek &#8211;<br \/><\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Titkot fejteni, ami nem l\u00e9tezik.<br \/><\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Sz\u00ednkavalk\u00e1dban akarok elveszni.<br \/><\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u00c9s r\u00e1lelni a mag\u00e1nyra, hogy: <\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">legy\u00fcnk ketten.<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">F\u00e9lek. Nincs ki kezemet szorosan fogja.<br \/><\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Hova menjek? Elt\u00e9vedtem.<br \/><\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">F\u00e1jdalom n\u00e9lk\u00fcli f\u00e1jdalomra v\u00e1gyom;<br \/><\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u00c9s minden megy tov\u00e1bb, mintha mi sem t\u00f6rt\u00e9nt volna.<\/span><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p style=\"text-align: right;\"><em><strong>Feller Zorka<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Az id\u0151 meg\u00e1llt.Amit magamnak \u00e1stam g\u00f6dr\u00f6t;Abb\u00f3l egyed\u00fcl kell kim\u00e1sznom &#8211;Karom gyenge m\u00e1r. A k\u00f6t\u00e9l elszakadt.Nem merem bevallani, hogy tegnap;M\u00e1r megint \u00e1lomba s\u00edrtam magamat.Bajom semmi: csup\u00e1n meghasadtam. Egy helyben vagyok. Mindig ugyanott.T\u00fck\u00f6rbe n\u00e9zek: elfordulok,Amit l\u00e1tok, nem tetszik &#8211;N\u00e9m\u00e1n mosolyt rajzolok, amit egy boh\u00f3c mutatott. Rakosgattam a kirak\u00f3s darabjait, \u00e9veken \u00e1t &#8211;M\u00e1ra kialakult a k\u00e9p: tetszik?Nemr\u00e9g \u00e9szrevettem, &hellip; <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"parent":2019,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":{"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-6790","page","type-page","status-publish","hentry"],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/ppkhok.elte.hu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/6790","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/ppkhok.elte.hu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/ppkhok.elte.hu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ppkhok.elte.hu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ppkhok.elte.hu\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=6790"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/ppkhok.elte.hu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/6790\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":6836,"href":"https:\/\/ppkhok.elte.hu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/6790\/revisions\/6836"}],"up":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ppkhok.elte.hu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/2019"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/ppkhok.elte.hu\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=6790"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}